I fell in love with the rodeo and cowboy church world. I use to day dream I would graduate and travel with Susie and help with her ministry. Or I would barrel race and travel the rodeo circuit and hold Cowboy Church services.
Over the years those young cowgirl dreams were set on a back burner. I allowed life to distract me. I had gotten so far away from being the person I knew God wanted me to be. I would attend Cowboy Junction here and there and watch RFDTV and see Susie on her Cowboy Church services and would get that pull. I would shove it back down where I thought it should be. You know that place that says you are not good enough to do that, you have too much junk in your life etc.....
The beginning of 2010 the Lord begin to stir in me a desire again for the things I loved. I looked around my home one day and said wow this decor is not even me, these clothes I'm wearing are not me, and what happened to Cassie Gilman? Where did her likes and desires and dreams go? The stirring started up by me redecorating my home to represent the true me. I started changing my decor to cowboy or western decor. I purchased a new pair of boots and clothes that were more me.
By 2010 I had overcame some things in my life such as drinking. However at this time I was smoking a lot and all of a sudden God said stop and I said okay. I knew right then there was a reason He had me stop. With in a month He started directing me to start this ministry. One day I had the name just drop in my heart and I just saw this logo. Now if you know me you know I am not an artist and do not create logos. I drew out what God showed me and asked a friend if she could create it with her graphic design company. I still didn't know what I was going to do with it. I was arguing with God a lot. I am a woman, I have too much junk in my past, I I I I!!!
God is such a good God. He gently nudged me until I shared my vision with my Pastor. He said he would be my covering and so we launched Mending Fences N Hearts Cowboy Church. My very first service my guest speaker was Greg Highsmith from Cowboy Junction in Vinita.
We held monthly services at the Creek County fair grounds. We held a couple of services at my dear friend Reesa Lierly's and had huge Bon fires and we always had a great turn out at each service. I was blown away by the amazing responses I saw and the support by so many.
Changes are not easy!! Things in my life begin to shift as I stepped into my purpose. Sometimes those closest to us do not know how to let us change. Then there was the attack of the enemy. Of course there was CASSIE! When I saw the reality of the call and the purpose I was called into I got scared. The first time I spoke there was such a strong anointing and response at the altar. That scared me. I thought wow I am not worthy to do this. But we can never be worthy. That is why He uses us. He wants to show His glory through us.
In January of 2011 I set this dream back on a shelf. I had continued to blog and post on my page on Facebook over the last few years. I have also sat under some other ministries over during this time. I was asked to speak at a couple of events and I always told them to keep off the Mending Fences part when introducing me. I did this for two reasons: 1. I wanted to stay under the ministry I was working with at the time out of respect. 2. I felt like a failure where this ministry was concerned.
I never let the Cowboy Church dreams completely die. I however kept avoiding it and hiding behind others and their ministries. Through circumstances I was attending a church that I didn't want to be apart of. There were so many things that went against my beliefs and made my spirit man sick inside. There was an attitude about Cowboy Church that was strongly voiced to me. At this time I was traveling with Carol and Joshua Cowboy Ministries. Each time I missed church to go out and do ministry with cowboy church I was faced with a very strong judgment. It was even said "I was in rebellion". This was a very confusing and dark time for me. This could have went one or two ways. It went Gods way.
I fled there and never looked back. I begin to start dreaming again about Cowboy church but not just any cowboy church. I dreamed of Mending Fences N Hearts services again. I was traveling more and more with Carol and Hannah Hogner. I carried sound or whatever they needed help with just to be a part. I so loved their hearts and ministry. Over time Carol AKA Mommajo asked me to speak. I was so very honored.
From 2012 until 2015 I have traveled with them and spoke and helped where I could. With their encouragment to start speaking ,I started doing some videos under Mending Fences N Hearts ministries. I have continued to wait for directions. This fall the Lord put in my heart a few things. One being the Won't Let Go ladies conferences that launched in January this year. The other was to contact my cousin who has Ridin for Cash Bull Bash. This year was the 7th Annual event to raise money for visually impaired children. I have been dreaming of hosting Mending Fences N Hearts Cowboy Church there since this cause began. This was the year to make it happen. We did our first one on Febuary 20th. It was amazing and we have been asked to make it an every year event.
I have already scheduled the next Ladies Conference in Oklahoma and working on another one down south somewhere. We are also working on launching Mending Fences N Hearts outreach services, working with local churches to reach their community.
We did a service for a homeless ministry and have our second one scheduled in April.
I have a very amazing support system and prayer warriors. I know God has big plans for this ministry. This Cowgirl's Dreams continue to come true.
Please keep us in prayer as we continue to seek direction and expand our ministry.
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